Why should I care?

[uberreiniger]

So I'm back from the musical. It was stellar. The ex-girlfriend was radiant. I had forgotten how gorgeous she is and how well she can sing. We talked for a long time afterward. It shouldn't bother me to hear that she has a boyfriend. If I had a girlfriend it probably wouldn't. Granted, it sounded like it wasn't all that serious and not going to last, but still, the girl has got someone to snuggle with and I don't. I get mixed up over the strangest things.

I've always felt regretful over our breakup, but she was the first after Lesley and it was just too soon. On the bright side, talking to her tonight was the first conversation we've had since our breakup that didn't feel awkward, so I can't really say it was a bad night. But damn... why did I have to let a good thing go? Everyone asks that at some point, I guess.

Comments

[freyjas-child.livejournal.com]

Hmm..yes everyone does ask that at one point or another. I find myself asking that very question of late and in the same light~sighs~Oh well...live and learn~smiles~

[uberreiniger.livejournal.com]

Indeed we must. Hi, I'm Tyree, by the way :)

[freyjas-child.livejournal.com]

I'm Erin...token Canadian~grins~ I found you on Amanda's list and after reading a few posts just had to add you^_^

[uberreiniger.livejournal.com]

Yay! Will do the same.

sounds familiar

[rustie25.livejournal.com]

you are more like me than should be allowed. I do the same damn thing. Why should we care? Because we romanticize everything. For whatever reason, you broke up. Was it right or wrong? It was the right thing at the time. But it sucks none the less.

Re: sounds familiar

[uberreiniger.livejournal.com]

The right thing at the time isn't always the right thing, though. I've often thought I made a mistake by not staying with her. It was genuinely a happy, wonderful time even though it was somewhat brief. We met and began dating just about two months after Lesley and it was just too soon for me.

As for romanticizing things, sure it has its pitfalls, but generally I think it's a lot of fun. You should too! :)

[uberreiniger.livejournal.com]

That's just it: I didn't have any of this confusing stuff with her until I no longer had the relationship! I had a very fun, happy time with her and made many special memories in a very short time. I just wasn't able to make the emotional step she wanted because I still had a head full of issues from heartbreak, so she broke up with me. And I completely understand that and don't blame her for it. I just feel kind of foolish for letting her go now. It's that 20/20 hindsight thing.