Why should I care?

[uberreiniger]

So I'm back from the musical. It was stellar. The ex-girlfriend was radiant. I had forgotten how gorgeous she is and how well she can sing. We talked for a long time afterward. It shouldn't bother me to hear that she has a boyfriend. If I had a girlfriend it probably wouldn't. Granted, it sounded like it wasn't all that serious and not going to last, but still, the girl has got someone to snuggle with and I don't. I get mixed up over the strangest things.

I've always felt regretful over our breakup, but she was the first after Lesley and it was just too soon. On the bright side, talking to her tonight was the first conversation we've had since our breakup that didn't feel awkward, so I can't really say it was a bad night. But damn... why did I have to let a good thing go? Everyone asks that at some point, I guess.

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[uberreiniger.livejournal.com]

That's just it: I didn't have any of this confusing stuff with her until I no longer had the relationship! I had a very fun, happy time with her and made many special memories in a very short time. I just wasn't able to make the emotional step she wanted because I still had a head full of issues from heartbreak, so she broke up with me. And I completely understand that and don't blame her for it. I just feel kind of foolish for letting her go now. It's that 20/20 hindsight thing.