What to do, What to do.

[uberreiniger]

Being band-less has left me feeling listless and cranky and not quite knowing what to do with myself. I am free to resume work on my own music now, but I miss the urgency and charged atmosphere of wanting to have a particular part ready by the next rehearsal. Maybe I work better in a group situation than I thought. Maybe it's exactly what I need to keep the motivation that I constantly fight with.

Ex-bandmate contacted me over facebook and we exchanged a couple of civil messages. Wish they'd showed this willingness to be calm when it mattered. I guess we don't hate each other though. *shrug*

My poor wife has been sick for a few days. I keep feeling like I'm starting to come down with it but then it backs off. I am really starting to itch to get stuff moved into the new house but it seems unlikely I'll be able to afford the gas to drive down there until I get paid again next week. Grr. I need to go through the storage area of our basement and start pulling all the domestic stuff that got put into mothballs two years ago so we can start putting it in its new home. Maybe if I do that until it's time to go down there I'll feel like I'm doing something.

Just generally antsy. Since my computer works again I've been playing Dragon Age: Origins again but that only keeps me distracted for so long. I've gotten to Orzammar, which to me is the most tedious part of the game. Seems to go on forever. You basically have to get through it the same way you reduce a golem's size: with a chisel and a lot of nerve.

Comments

[rosehiptea.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry you've been listless and cranky; I can totally relate. I hope you can find another band someday, if that's what you want.

I hope your wife feels better soon and you stay healthy.

I own Dragon Age: Origins but I loaned it to my ex-husband. Maybe it's time to ask him if he's done with it.

[solandra.livejournal.com]

I have that game on X-Box but stopped playing it a few months ago. I don't remember why.. I think I finished the under-roads or something like that? After you get your soldier friend to Captain? I should finish it someday..

[flame-song.livejournal.com]

If I were you, I'd go looking for new bandmates. And I would actually call the old guys, or meet them somewhere and talk things over. Some things can't be resolved by messaging, because you need to hear people's tone of voice and look into their eyes to see what's really up.

[uberreiniger.livejournal.com]

My offers to do that were rebuffed because they "didn't want to get into a fight over the phone." So that's that as far as I'm concerned. I'm not going to keep harassing them to do something they obviously have no interest in doing.