Just busy enough to feel completely useless.

[uberreiniger]

I feel very lethargic today despite having done everything I set out to do. It's been the second of two days off in a row. The first involved rehearsal with the troupe. Our big performance of the summer is two weeks out and I think everyone is feeling the stress. Rehearsal was a lot of fun though and I'm not worried. Then again I basically just have to show up and say my lines. I'm not involved in making costumes or any of the other logistical stuff. I will be next year if I manage to write & direct a couple of sketches like I'm planning on. This year it's still a source of relaxation and I'm grateful for that.

Today I got up early and went to Walmart to buy a bunch of stuff we needed. I also decided today that I am going to lose weight. I know I have been gaining too much weight. But what finally motivated me as no matter of health or beauty could is the fact that my Slayer t-shirt is now feeling snug. I will sacrifice a great deal of my quality of life in the name of eating what I damn well please but one thing I will NOT sacrifice are my metal band t-shirts. So the buying trip this morning included buying some fruit, which isn't really kept around the house. The family barbecued corn on the cob last night and I ate what was left of it throughout the day along with some grapefruit. I feel pretty good.

The big problem in my life is soda. And I'm not going to try and cut it out because who am I fucking kidding. But I've drank about half today of what I usually drink. I bought some V8 Splash which I used to drink all the time and am using it to curb my soda cravings at meal times. It's weird but I don't like to drink water when I'm eating. I like a sweet drink. But I've found it doesn't matter what that drink is. It doesn't have to be carbonated. So if I'm hoping I can step down from soda using the juice.

"Using the juice." Sounds like I'm talking about street drug slang. Then again, the way the health nuts talk about corn syrup they'd probably say that's exactly what I'm talking about.

I wrote this morning and felt good about it. I practiced the bass but didn't feel particularly inspired. I spent the afternoon catching up with Transformers: War for Cybertron on the PS3. Almost to the end of the Decepticon campaign. I thought I'd save the epic boss fight against Omega Supreme for another day. You might remember him from your childhood as the motorized walking Transformer toy who turned into a giant-ass battle station. That's your boss fight. Have fun selecting "Resume from last save point?" over and over again. I've had the game since Christmas and it's fun to be playing it again. I'd like to at least say I got the Decepticon campaign done before I owned the machine for six months.

Tonight since M. had class and I was home I logged in to WoW to go on a raid with my guild. I haven't raided since the end of Wrath of the Lich King and I figured it was time to see what was out there. They had enough people signed up already so I didn't get to go on the raid. I actually felt relieved and glad not to go. I think I might be getting ready to move on from WoW. I don't want that to be the case, I really don't. But... I dunno, anymore logging in and playing is like having sex with a Tauren who doesn't love you anymore and won't look at you during.

So here I am, rocking out to Moonspell, trying to get motivated to write some more on one of my WIP's while I wait for M. to come home. Hope everyone else had a good Memorial Day holiday.

Comments

[whiskeychick.livejournal.com]

I know what you mean about WoW. I logged on for a bit last night and was like, meh. I worked on my Winterspring rep. As usual, not a soul in my guild was on.

As far as weight loss. Dear god, I can't do anything right. And I miss my "conversation tshirts" I've always rocked. But even not getting to wear those as often hasn't given me enough motivation. Maybe I need a KISS tshirt from the early days. lol.

[uberreiniger.livejournal.com]

I kind of have the opposite problem. People are on in my guild all the time now but that's because the guild leader has recruited dozens of new people. We used to be a guild of about twelve people and we were very close knit. We only did ten-mans but it was a blast and as much about socializing together as about the fights. Now most of them are never on anymore and it's nothing but new people whom I don't know. As Social Distortion said in their classic song "Story of My Life," the faces have all changed/There's no one there left to talk to.

There are women who have the Little Black Dress they want to fit back into. I have my Slayer shirt! Whatever works and gets you going, I guess. I say dig that KISS shirt out of the bottom of the dresser and make it a goal. If nothing else is working then it's not like it can work any *worse.*

[ravenbrenna.livejournal.com]

Cutting pop can be hard, but once you actually do and managed to not drink it for awhile you'd be surprised at how much you don't want it anymore. And if you cut it out you can lose a lot of weight fast actually. I lost ten lbs in a month once just by not drinking pop the entire time. That was all I had changed. And right now for the most part I don't touch the stuff. I have occasional moments of weakness, but I find when I drink it now it tastes gross and I'm just drinking it because 1) it's on hand and convenient and 2) I'm tired of water/don't wnat it w/ my food and there isn't anything else around.

But good luck!!!

[uberreiniger.livejournal.com]

I know I won't be able to get rid of soda altogether. But if I can cut my consumption in half I know it will make a big difference. My weight has remained mostly consistent throughout my adult life but I must be getting to the age where my metabolism is changing because my clothes are getting tight fast and my diet hasn't really gotten any worse than it ever was. I hope that by being realistic about what I can do and in what incriments I'll be able to lose a little weight without getting disappointed in myself.

[ravenbrenna.livejournal.com]

Cutting out pop will help a ton, even if it's only cutting down. The problem with pop is that it's got empty calories, and full of sugar which is terrible! Also, it makes you crave more food so it's a jerk that way.

[gothicbeauty21.livejournal.com]

I hear you on all counts.

I've started drinking more water (although I usually do a Crystal Light or Special K or Arizona drink pack in it) and fewer sodas. When I have a carbonated beverage, it's usually a RedBull. I've stopped drinking diet soda, and when I have one it's regular. Maybe 3 a week?

I've gone back to drinking hot tea at night, and between hot tea just being good for you, it's helped me sleep better, and better sleep helps you lose weight.

I have a lot of super sexy pants I miss wearing, plus I have a wedding dress to fit into in 5 months. I need to lose 6 inches from my waist and about 7 inches from my bust. If I can get 5 inches off, a corset should do the rest. Yay for Gallery Serpentine! Now to pull $500 out of my ass...

I also know what you mean about WoW. My guild is going through a dead phase too, and it's just as well because I don't have time to play much right now. If things continue being this dead when I'm settled, though, I'll probably go guild hop. It was AWESOME when I joined back in March-ish, lots of active people, but then all the main people had to take breaks, and the guy leading now just isn't good as a GM at all, and he's run people off. He's become like Sarah Palin, schedules events and doesn't show up for them, flakes out and doesn't schedule anything at all for weeks, and then is as annoying as fuck when he is there. I'm hoping with summer break here now, more of the original people can play more (the guild is mostly 20-something males who are in college, I'm one of only two girls in the entire guild, it rocks) but meh.

Having a good, active guild make all the difference.

[uberreiniger.livejournal.com]

My GM does all the exact same things yours does. Luckily we've had good officers to carry us along through all the stuff he starts and then disappears from. The problem isn't that my guild has become inactive but that it's had almost a complete membership turnover. My GM I think has always wanted us to be a super-cool respected 25 man guild. What he doesn't understand is that our core group was perfectly happy with it being the 10-man casual guild that it was. Consequently, he has flooded the guild with new members, (and the "looking for guild" tool has only made it worse,) whereas the the people who have been there since the early days now log on and play less and less. It doesn't feel like I'm a part of something anymore and all the fun things I used to do for diversions now just feel like work.

A big part of my problem with my weight is my erratic sleep schedule. It's one of the things I'm hoping to normalize.

[gothicbeauty21.livejournal.com]

The solution might be for the old core group to leave and make a new guild. It'll be easier than trying to make the guild go back to its old ways.

[germsama.livejournal.com]

Do you like Propel? I started replacing 12-packs of Mountain Dew in the fridge with cases of Propel, still allowing myself to drink soda when I go out but never at home. It's worked quite well for me so far, so it might be something you could try if you like a sweet drink with your meals.

[uberreiniger.livejournal.com]

I've tried Propel and didn't care for it. For now the V8 is seeing me through. I do notice that I haven't craved Mountain Dew the last two days now that I've started drinking the juice. I do still get a hankering for dark colas though.