And so the rats depart. One by one, the rats depart.

[uberreiniger]

My co-worker with whom I've worked over night for the past four years turned in his two weeks' notice today. That kind of bums me out, not because I'll miss the guy, although I will - we work together, but we never really talk much. It bums me out because it reminds me that I'm no closer to getting out of there myself. This guy has zero ambition or motivation of any kind, yet he got a job before me, and one that pays more to boot. Maybe I'm aiming too high, because here I am trying to land something in an office whereas he just went for manual labor. Maybe I'm dumb for even letting it affect me at all. Maybe I just need to accept that my resume looks about as good as a cardboard pussy after a boxcutter gangbang.*

A while back my mom mentioned that they're looking for people for the management program at Walgreens. I'm thinking about looking into it. After office jobs, what I've been looking at most is retail assistant management since I have experience at that.

Reading this, I come across as a lot more down on myself than I actually am. My self-esteem's still okay. I just can't see why I'm getting nowhere, and seeing other people getting somewhere ahead of me just makes me want to get there that much faster.



*Because I know some wiseacre is going to ask, no I didn't spend all night thinking that one up. It only took about ten seconds, springing into my mind fully-formed like Athena from the head of mighty Zeus.

Comments

[uberreiniger.livejournal.com]

Good band name, too. Cardboard Pussy and the Boxcutter Gangbang.

[uberreiniger.livejournal.com]

Like My Life With The Thrill Kill Kult or The Electric Hellfire Club, only with cardboard pussies. And boxcutters.

[germsama.livejournal.com]

When things like that happen, it's sometimes nice to fancy that everything happens for a reason, and soon you'll be given the opportunity of a lifetime. Like, I dunno, an insane book deal? =D

It's a little naive, but it keeps the chin up.

Maybe it's time to look outside the cubicle, if the office jobs aren't hiring. The Walgreens thing could be worth a look.

[ysathora.livejournal.com]

It's a little naive, but it keeps the chin up.

That's kind of the way I see things too. Maybe he's not aiming too high, maybe it's too low.

[stitchedsutures.livejournal.com]

Seriously, I've told myself that for so many years and it has seen me through. Things look really sucky for a long while and then they get better just when I think I can't take it any longer.

It's frustrating to watch other people around you getting what you've but so much effort into getting (in this case a better paying/more stable job), but I honestly believe that one is made to wait for a reason. I'm SO glad that I didn't try to force things or settle just out of frustration in the past.

Tyree...
Your time is coming. You will be taken care of. You will be provided with whatever you need when you need it. I believe in you so much and you have a kickass lady by your side these days to see you through. Maybe when I come visit in Ocotober we will get to celebrate a new job as well?

I'm rooting for you :)

[uberreiniger.livejournal.com]

That brightened my day. Thanks for your kind words. Hopefully time will prove you right.

[uberreiniger.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I think it could be.

[80stoongirl.livejournal.com]

I'm going to have to steal your eloquent word poetry sometime... that was a good, albeit graphic, image.

[uberreiniger.livejournal.com]

May it come in handy :)

[ysathora.livejournal.com]

springing into my mind fully-formed like Athena from the head of mighty Zeus.

I think both Zeus and Athena would be offended by that. ;)

[ghaidin.livejournal.com]

argh, sounds very frustrating. Lame as it is, maybe the "something better is waiting to happen down the road" applies here.
*hugs*

Very... err... colorful, the expression. How does one become writer for those cards they sell in gas stations and the sort? maybe you could send in a couple of samples to whoever does those things, you're gold for that!

[uberreiniger.livejournal.com]

I actually did try that once, but got rejected. I haven't thought about it in a few years, though. Maybe I should look into it again.

[donkeyjon.livejournal.com]

Reading this, I come across as a lot more down on myself than I actually am. My self-esteem's still okay. I just can't see why I'm getting nowhere, and seeing other people getting somewhere ahead of me just makes me want to get there that much faster.

You just described, succinctly and accurately, exactly how I feel about relationships. :)

[ksracxe.livejournal.com]

Bah! You want an office job? You're in the wrong damn city! You just need to come up to Minneapolis - there are tons of financial institutions just waiting to take you in!

Seriously though, good luck with this. Job finding sucks. Your resume probably doesn't suck, but there isn't any hiring right now. Actually, this is the time where layoffs are going to start taking place in the office world, so maybe you could do the wallgreens thing and look for something else in the meantime? It couldn't hurt ... and I know that if you fnd something else and explain it when leaving wallgreens, they'll be happy that you've moved on to better ventures ..
at least I always was very understanding and helpful when I was a manager ... :p

[uberreiniger.livejournal.com]

I'm a strange person who actually likes working retail. I just don't do it because it doesn't pay anything. Retail management, on the other hand, pays very well.

I'm not sure this is the wrong city. I see tons of office jobs advertised, they're just all beyond my qualifications.

[ksracxe.livejournal.com]

Nah i was being sarcastic about the city part. I have no formal education and I happened on my job in a online posting - and I passed their exam.

Then again, customer service (phones) is not very rewarding either - it just pays well. Retail management may be less stressful in the long run (unless you land a data entry job, and that rocks if you type fast like I do cause you can do all the shit quickly and are usually left alone to do what you want for the rest of the day ... )

[uberreiniger.livejournal.com]

I type like lightning. Sadly, I never see data entry jobs advertised. Or if I do, they all pay like ten dollars an hour.