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megiloth's orgy of meat, about which I am displeased. Hey Patrick, if you like I can drop the Celldweller cd by on the way home from work some morning this week. I don't know what time you get home from work or get in bed, so I can just drop it in your mailbox if that would be easier.
In other news, I'm now convinced my nose is not broken after all. It's just swollen and hurts. My father (who should know from his own experiences,) took a look at it and said it was not. Not enough swelling and my eyes aren't black. So I guess I'm lucky. Still, all the blood and swelling sure convinced me it was broke. But I'm not complaining in the slightest.
Okay, this next part is for one specific person. It is an open letter tonoerru so if you are not Noel, you do not have to read it. I don't know where you are or what you're doing right now, but I'd like to stress once again that I think you are making the worst mistake of your life by fleeing like this. You have no idea what you are getting yourself into. Writing hot checks is a crime. You WILL go to jail for it. Even if you do not, I believe you are in no way prepared for what you will find on the mean streets of California. Maybe you'll no longer consider me a friend for saying these things, but honestly, I don't care about keeping your friendship. I care about keeping you alive. I don't want a friend who's dead, in prison, or brutalized and victimized on the streets of a city where he knows no one and has no friends. I only wish I'd have said these things a long time ago. You may never read them now or until it's too late and for that I am sorry. I feel I have let you down.
I've never believed in TG, but I've always respected your wishes to do with your body as you pleased. I believe that TG people do have a disorder, but it's between their ears, not between their legs and the medical industry, partially motivated by greed, has rushed to a drastic surgical conclusion regarding a disorder that is barely understood. I've personally never agreed with your decision to go through with this transition because I honestly have never believed you had the disorder, but that's your business. My point is that now that you've made the decision to go through with it, you have to be prepared for the consequences it will mean for the rest of your life. It will mean getting turned down for jobs. It will mean prejudice and hatred. And California may be more "accepting" as a whole, but gays and TG's in California get hurt, abused and taken advantage of there as much as anywhere else. And as far as jobs go, my friend, companies discriminate in hiring people every day. They discriminate due to age, gender, race, medical conditions, and they've gotten very efficient at making sure they're asses are covered so you can't get them for discrimination or prove that you've been discriminated against.
You think that getting thown in prison will mean shelter, food and a place to sleep. Well guess what, it'll also mean a bunch of evil criminals who are WAY harder than you wanting to teach your sweet little TG ass a lesson. I don't want to see that happen to you. I don't want to see you knifed in the street for your last five bucks by whatever other outcast you thought was your friend. I want you whole, alive, and pursuing your dreams. You might think this is the way to puruse those dreams. I think you are wrong.
I'm not saying these things to make you angry, my friend. I'm saying them to keep you alive. I only wish I'd said them sooner.
There. I've said my peace. Whatever will be, now will be.
megiloth's orgy of meat, about which I am displeased. Hey Patrick, if you like I can drop the Celldweller cd by on the way home from work some morning this week. I don't know what time you get home from work or get in bed, so I can just drop it in your mailbox if that would be easier.In other news, I'm now convinced my nose is not broken after all. It's just swollen and hurts. My father (who should know from his own experiences,) took a look at it and said it was not. Not enough swelling and my eyes aren't black. So I guess I'm lucky. Still, all the blood and swelling sure convinced me it was broke. But I'm not complaining in the slightest.
Okay, this next part is for one specific person. It is an open letter to
noerru so if you are not Noel, you do not have to read it. I don't know where you are or what you're doing right now, but I'd like to stress once again that I think you are making the worst mistake of your life by fleeing like this. You have no idea what you are getting yourself into. Writing hot checks is a crime. You WILL go to jail for it. Even if you do not, I believe you are in no way prepared for what you will find on the mean streets of California. Maybe you'll no longer consider me a friend for saying these things, but honestly, I don't care about keeping your friendship. I care about keeping you alive. I don't want a friend who's dead, in prison, or brutalized and victimized on the streets of a city where he knows no one and has no friends. I only wish I'd have said these things a long time ago. You may never read them now or until it's too late and for that I am sorry. I feel I have let you down.I've never believed in TG, but I've always respected your wishes to do with your body as you pleased. I believe that TG people do have a disorder, but it's between their ears, not between their legs and the medical industry, partially motivated by greed, has rushed to a drastic surgical conclusion regarding a disorder that is barely understood. I've personally never agreed with your decision to go through with this transition because I honestly have never believed you had the disorder, but that's your business. My point is that now that you've made the decision to go through with it, you have to be prepared for the consequences it will mean for the rest of your life. It will mean getting turned down for jobs. It will mean prejudice and hatred. And California may be more "accepting" as a whole, but gays and TG's in California get hurt, abused and taken advantage of there as much as anywhere else. And as far as jobs go, my friend, companies discriminate in hiring people every day. They discriminate due to age, gender, race, medical conditions, and they've gotten very efficient at making sure they're asses are covered so you can't get them for discrimination or prove that you've been discriminated against.
You think that getting thown in prison will mean shelter, food and a place to sleep. Well guess what, it'll also mean a bunch of evil criminals who are WAY harder than you wanting to teach your sweet little TG ass a lesson. I don't want to see that happen to you. I don't want to see you knifed in the street for your last five bucks by whatever other outcast you thought was your friend. I want you whole, alive, and pursuing your dreams. You might think this is the way to puruse those dreams. I think you are wrong.
I'm not saying these things to make you angry, my friend. I'm saying them to keep you alive. I only wish I'd said them sooner.
There. I've said my peace. Whatever will be, now will be.
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Date: 2003-07-07 07:43 am (UTC)The TG thing I really can't say I have much of an opinion on. Personally Noel I think you are gay and are trying to hide it with this TG nonsense. If you like guys then for christ sakes fuck guys! I know that you want to be this little japanese girl with long black hair and what not. But the body you have is the body you are stuck with. NOTHING is going to change that. NOTHING. Not even a surgery! You saw the pictures that you got back when you sent them away to see what they could do to make you look more feminine! That is what you are going to look like! The decision you have to make for yourself now is
"do I want to do this to my body?"
Your body is your temple. Decorating it is one thing but desacrating it is another. Your pecker isn't there to get chopped off! I have also respected your wishes to be TG and to want to be a woman but I also disagree with it. Like I said. I think you are gay. Just be gay! There is nothing wrong with it! I PROMISE YOU!
On another note :
I seriously think that you need some help! Some SERIOUS therapy to get whatever is going on in your head figured the fuck out! There is nothing wrong with therapy and I don't care how many times you tell me you've already tried it and it doesn't work! You aren't trying hard enough.
You decide what path you are going to take your life down! And I think that Tyree and I are at an agreement here. You are making some bad choices for yourself, and you are going to get hurt!
We LUV you and don't want to see that happen!
FUCK just come home and get a fucking job!
We are worried for you safety!