Melancholy
Jun. 18th, 2003 01:53 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
uberreinigerI have seen you on the edge of dawn,
Felt you near before you were born,
Balanced your dreams upon the edge of thorns...
But I don't think about you anymore.
-Savatage, "Edge of Thorns"
I don't know why I'm melancholy today. I just am and the above lyrics sum it up perfectly. It's one of the most melancholy songs I know and like. And the band's guitarist died just a few months after releasing it. You can't get much more melancholy than that.
It probably has something to do with the fact that I slept all evening up until work time. I woke up in the middle of the afternoon after having bad nightmares about a friend (who shall remain nameless just to make you all curious,) and couldn't get back to sleep afterward. So I sat around and fiddled with L5R decks and watched stoopid courtroom shows until I got sleepy again and before I knew it another evening was wasted.
Perhaps it's because Lesley's out of town until Sunday. Even though I rarely see her more than twice a week, just having my best friend a block up the street is comforting and makes me feel more like a part of the world instead of the isolated creature I have become. Soon I'll be like the Yeti or Sasquatch: intelligent, gentle, hairy, and rarely seen by a curious world. Unlike the Yeti or Sasquatch, nobody will dress up in costumes of me and run around while friends film grainy footage of them to hoax the world that I exist. Unlike the Yeti or Sasquatch, I will be forgotten. Perhaps I am melancholy because I can go from discussing a beautiful woman to pondering the missing link in the same paragraph and it does not feel strange at all.
Perhaps my melancholy has something to do with the Taco Bell food that I ate. I woke up too late to be able to reach McDonalds and still get to work on time, so the Bell it was. Why is eating at TB such a hit-or-miss proposition? Why on earth am I eating at a restaurant with the initials "TB" anyway? Forgive my crudeness, but I could shit better Taco Bell than what they served me tonight and in a few hours, I probably will.
Perhaps I am melancholy for all of these reasons, perhaps for none. Perhaps it is best I just put it behind me and not think upon it anymore.
Felt you near before you were born,
Balanced your dreams upon the edge of thorns...
But I don't think about you anymore.
-Savatage, "Edge of Thorns"
I don't know why I'm melancholy today. I just am and the above lyrics sum it up perfectly. It's one of the most melancholy songs I know and like. And the band's guitarist died just a few months after releasing it. You can't get much more melancholy than that.
It probably has something to do with the fact that I slept all evening up until work time. I woke up in the middle of the afternoon after having bad nightmares about a friend (who shall remain nameless just to make you all curious,) and couldn't get back to sleep afterward. So I sat around and fiddled with L5R decks and watched stoopid courtroom shows until I got sleepy again and before I knew it another evening was wasted.
Perhaps it's because Lesley's out of town until Sunday. Even though I rarely see her more than twice a week, just having my best friend a block up the street is comforting and makes me feel more like a part of the world instead of the isolated creature I have become. Soon I'll be like the Yeti or Sasquatch: intelligent, gentle, hairy, and rarely seen by a curious world. Unlike the Yeti or Sasquatch, nobody will dress up in costumes of me and run around while friends film grainy footage of them to hoax the world that I exist. Unlike the Yeti or Sasquatch, I will be forgotten. Perhaps I am melancholy because I can go from discussing a beautiful woman to pondering the missing link in the same paragraph and it does not feel strange at all.
Perhaps my melancholy has something to do with the Taco Bell food that I ate. I woke up too late to be able to reach McDonalds and still get to work on time, so the Bell it was. Why is eating at TB such a hit-or-miss proposition? Why on earth am I eating at a restaurant with the initials "TB" anyway? Forgive my crudeness, but I could shit better Taco Bell than what they served me tonight and in a few hours, I probably will.
Perhaps I am melancholy for all of these reasons, perhaps for none. Perhaps it is best I just put it behind me and not think upon it anymore.
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Date: 2003-06-18 07:10 am (UTC)as to the rest of your post.. man, i think i am about to become an urban legend too. people will hear rumors about "some tragic redheaded artist" that they vaguely remember... then the "strange happenings" will start as soon as they remember what my name is and say it in front of a mirror 3 times. Not quite sasquatch but it would be the way I would personally go.
Sorry your taco bell sucked too. i usually LOOOOVE the Bell.. but i once paid extra for the steak in my burrito only to take 3 bites and still get none.. so i went and asked for some meat and the girl opened it up, saw 3 bits of steak huddled towards the end i had yet to eat and told me "there it is." and complelety expected this to satisfy my problem. you're right. its a hit or miss operation with that place. a home run or a foul ball every blasted time!
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Date: 2003-06-18 08:40 am (UTC)Sounds identical to an experience I had at the generic Chinese place that used to be in the Independence mall. After waiting fifteen minutes for General Tso I get a mountain of rice with literally four pieces of meat on top of it and a slew of peppers and onions. I demand where the chicken is. The vapid blond bimbo behind the counter lets her vacant gaze fall to the four pieces of chicken and goes "it's there." Again, with utmost certainty that this will placate me in my righteous anger.
I spent the next five minutes waiting for them to figure out how to do a refund on the credit card machine.
Twenty minutes. No food. I'll take my chances with the Bell any day.
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Date: 2003-06-18 09:58 am (UTC)And just in case you're feeling fairly like "I DO believe in Tyree!" *claps hands a bunch*
:-) Hi Tyree. I think you're great, just so ya know.
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Date: 2003-06-18 10:29 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-06-19 03:36 pm (UTC)Huh. That just doesn't have the power that "Never Surrender!" or "Never Quit!" do.
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Date: 2003-06-19 05:37 pm (UTC):)