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30 Days of Music Meme - Day 7
Jun. 9th, 2010 01:12 amA song that reminds me of a particular event.
The song is Whitesnake's "Here I Go Again."
The memory is pretty dark. Travis was the bully who tormented me day in and day out for four years from 4th grade till 8th grade. He was also the most popular kid in school, which meant he always had an audience of 12-20 people cheering him on when he did so. Even people who treated me like a friend when he wasn't around, they joined in. At the very best, they stood by and did nothing. There are bullies and then there are bullies, and I can't accurately describe him other than to say that he was on his way to becoming a very nasty, manipulative, and possibly very dangerous man.
One morning when I was in 8th grade Travis was in a car accident. He broke his neck and died instantly. I remember the night of the viewing at the funeral home. Everyone from school was weeping, wailing, and crying. I couldn't cry, not then. I just stood over his open casket, looking at him lying there. I could never defeat him, never get away from him, never stop him, and yet now he was dead and I was alive.
As I stood there it was then that I noticed there was music playing softly in the funeral home. The song playing at that moment was the one posted here. It seemed completely inappropriate to the situation. I can only assume it was a song that he liked.
I can't imagine there are many people who have a song they associate with the memory of standing over the dead body of a person they hate. But I do.
The song is Whitesnake's "Here I Go Again."
The memory is pretty dark. Travis was the bully who tormented me day in and day out for four years from 4th grade till 8th grade. He was also the most popular kid in school, which meant he always had an audience of 12-20 people cheering him on when he did so. Even people who treated me like a friend when he wasn't around, they joined in. At the very best, they stood by and did nothing. There are bullies and then there are bullies, and I can't accurately describe him other than to say that he was on his way to becoming a very nasty, manipulative, and possibly very dangerous man.
One morning when I was in 8th grade Travis was in a car accident. He broke his neck and died instantly. I remember the night of the viewing at the funeral home. Everyone from school was weeping, wailing, and crying. I couldn't cry, not then. I just stood over his open casket, looking at him lying there. I could never defeat him, never get away from him, never stop him, and yet now he was dead and I was alive.
As I stood there it was then that I noticed there was music playing softly in the funeral home. The song playing at that moment was the one posted here. It seemed completely inappropriate to the situation. I can only assume it was a song that he liked.
I can't imagine there are many people who have a song they associate with the memory of standing over the dead body of a person they hate. But I do.
