It is done

[uberreiniger]

Lymphoma. Irregular heart rate. Tumor in the anterior abdomen. Possible neurological damage. What was there to do? Two injections. One sedative, the other the killer, and it was done. She just lay there, one eye open, one eye not. One moment she was alive. The next, she was just a thing lying there.

We buried her. I gave a eulogy which I made up on the spot, but was told it was very good. She's with her mother and brothers now. She is well. Death is not forever, it just feels that way when you're the one who's got to go on. Life is too short, except, it seems, when you need it to be.

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[nolens-volens.livejournal.com]

*wishing you were closer so that I could give you a REAL hug*

I know how hard it is, but at least her suffering is over.

[uberreiniger.livejournal.com]

I wish that too. Thanks so much.

[ksracxe.livejournal.com]

:(

at least she is no longer in pain, and she had a really good life. you just have to think of it that way.

*hug*

[uberreiniger.livejournal.com]

Yes. And I do. It was just hard seeing her lie there like a kind of little robot that had been turned off. She's off running free now. It's just hard to keep sight of that sometimes.

The trappings and the suits of woe.

[anirishspitfire.livejournal.com]

~Hugs tightly!~ Though your heart may cry out in pain, know that it will soon rejoice once more, for she is free of pain and earthly suffering, free to love you still from now a place of light. You did the right thing in all things.

Re: The trappings and the suits of woe.

[uberreiniger.livejournal.com]

I've actually handled it okay by keeping that perspective. My parents both cried. It was really rough on them. She was their daily companion these last eight years whereas I only saw her when I came home. I loved her, but the connection was much more intimate for them. Lesley (my best friend, who's so much like you you'd probably be convinced you were related if you met her,) says not to be surprised if we see her around the house now like the other phantom cat. I hope that's true. I keep expecting her to be there and she's not and everything feels a little more empty right now.

[girlghoul.livejournal.com]

Aww honey I'm sorry. *huge hugs* I've been there twice before.. its not fun. *hugs*

[uberreiniger.livejournal.com]

No, it's definately a miserable part of the pet-owning experience. God bless her little soul. Thanks. I know how much animals mean to you and it's terrible whenever they have to suffer. they don't know what's happening to them like we're able to find out and I can only imagine that makes it all the more scary and depressing for them.

[girlghoul.livejournal.com]

*nods* Elda, our last dog that we had to put down, actually looked at my father as if she was thanking him. My poor dad, he's had to take both Beau and Elda in when it was time. I could drive them there, but just couldn't handle taking them in. I always broke down at the door. *shrugs*

It definately isn't the part of owning a pet that I like that's for darn sure. Everytime it tears me up inside. Which is why I feel so bad for you.

I think a part of them knows. How else would they know to run off somewhere on thier own to die, if they didn't somehow know they were sick? So I think she knew and was appreciative that you allowed her her time to go. *huge hugs*

I'm so sorry honey... Now if I can only get my eyes to stop while I'm writing this. *sighs*

[uberreiniger.livejournal.com]

Aw, don't cry. Yes, they do know. They instinctively do. Perhaps watching them hide is the saddest part because by the time they've started that it's almost always already too late. We had the vet come out and he was a very kind man. It made it a lot easier on her and on us. It was just so hard watching her go. It's a memory that will stay with me a long time.

[girlghoul.livejournal.com]

*nods* I know. The only thing you can do is take with you the knowledge that you did right by her ..honey. *hugs*

[stitchedsutures.livejournal.com]

I do like the idea of the phantom cat that you were discussing with Kate.. free to run around, knocking things off, tampering with the miniblinds and tugging at your pants leg if you pass by the table but never to be seen by human eyes.

but i hope your parents can cope with this all right. it's always sad to see a much loved pet go. I guess i can also say what everyone else says and that i wish i could give you a hug and take you for a trip to Fazoli's (heh! no one else offered THAT :)

[uberreiniger.livejournal.com]

That's right, no one else did. You win the gold star :) I will accept a rain check until this summer. Thanks, too. We'll see Callie again. I believe.

[equusk.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry about your cat.

I know how you feel, and I hope you can see through this to give another deserving cat a good home.

[uberreiniger.livejournal.com]

Thankee. Thou art both fair and kind. And I do plan on cats being a part of my life for all time to come.

[equusk.livejournal.com]

If you were in Metro Atl, I'd help you find a new kitty on my random quest to find a new random non-related sister, but that wouldn't really work.