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uberreinigerJob interview yesterday was a very fascinating experience. However I'm not going to take the job. Why? Because it is 100% commission based. And I'm sorry, but I cannot live that way. To be fair, the company looks really solid, and I firmly believed the man when he says your income could reach 50-70K after three years. But he was also upfront about the fact you will NOT be making that much UNTIL the three years are up. If I want to spend three years not making money I'll stay at the job I'm at. Although getting to fly to New York for two weeks for the training seminar would have been fun.
I really don't feel bad about the interview or the day in general at all. I think I learned more about myself yesterday about what I want and need out of a job then I have at any time in the last five years. The interviewer also tossed out a few financial tidbits which are going to affect how I manage my own savings in the near future. If they work better, (and just about anything would work better than the way I'm saving now,) then more good might come of this day then just a failed interview.
It was fun getting dressed up in a suit and slipping and falling on my bum in the first November snowfall, (which itself began as cold November rain. Sing it, Axl!) After I got home Mel and I proceeded to have one of the most magical days we've ever had together. We had Chinese at the FooKee buffet, (a name which we've decided will be a verb in and of itself from here on,) took a very restful nap in which she had a most profound dream. I merely dreamt I was Obi-Wan Kenobi. Then we got up and went out for the evening. We sipped Chantico at Starbucks, browsed books at Barnes & Noble, and had a passionate discussion about God(s) at O'Dowd's Irish Tavern over Harp lager and spinach dip.
There's a lot of talk these days about what sin is. The lines regarding it seem very blurry anymore. At least it appears that way. But looks can be deceptive. And here's what I know: arrogance before God is blasphemy and it is sin. When you speak of arrogance before God, people often think of hubris, but I think there are slight differences in the two. Hubris is the belief you can simply do as you please; that God's laws don't apply to you. No, this is different. The arrogance I find so abhorrent is the one which makes a person stand up and say "I speak for God! God wants this. God has made up his mind this way and discussion with Him is pointless."
Everyone who is a person of faith has probably done this at one point or another. It's difficult not to do. But it is dangerous and I cannot believe it is pleasing to God. I try to be careful not to think that way; not to speak that way. I will point to a scripture and say what it says. I can say what I believe God's intent was. I can say what my personal experiences with God have shown me in my own life. And I can say what is generally knowable: that God loves us and would like every person to know Him better.
What's the difference? Maybe there isn't one. But I try not to talk about what's going on inside God's giant flame-shooting head as though I am there. I try to make it clear that God's is the side I wish to be on, not that God is on my side.
There's a lot of renewed interest in C.S. Lewis right now due to the big Narnia movie coming out. But the best thing I ever learned from C.S. Lewis's work can be paraphrased this way: God doesn't need you. Once you are able to get your head around that surprisingly tough concept, then maybe, just maybe, God will show you the manner in which you can serve.
Or if you're a jerk like me you'll just say it as God doesn't need you to do His job for Him.
I really don't feel bad about the interview or the day in general at all. I think I learned more about myself yesterday about what I want and need out of a job then I have at any time in the last five years. The interviewer also tossed out a few financial tidbits which are going to affect how I manage my own savings in the near future. If they work better, (and just about anything would work better than the way I'm saving now,) then more good might come of this day then just a failed interview.
It was fun getting dressed up in a suit and slipping and falling on my bum in the first November snowfall, (which itself began as cold November rain. Sing it, Axl!) After I got home Mel and I proceeded to have one of the most magical days we've ever had together. We had Chinese at the FooKee buffet, (a name which we've decided will be a verb in and of itself from here on,) took a very restful nap in which she had a most profound dream. I merely dreamt I was Obi-Wan Kenobi. Then we got up and went out for the evening. We sipped Chantico at Starbucks, browsed books at Barnes & Noble, and had a passionate discussion about God(s) at O'Dowd's Irish Tavern over Harp lager and spinach dip.
There's a lot of talk these days about what sin is. The lines regarding it seem very blurry anymore. At least it appears that way. But looks can be deceptive. And here's what I know: arrogance before God is blasphemy and it is sin. When you speak of arrogance before God, people often think of hubris, but I think there are slight differences in the two. Hubris is the belief you can simply do as you please; that God's laws don't apply to you. No, this is different. The arrogance I find so abhorrent is the one which makes a person stand up and say "I speak for God! God wants this. God has made up his mind this way and discussion with Him is pointless."
Everyone who is a person of faith has probably done this at one point or another. It's difficult not to do. But it is dangerous and I cannot believe it is pleasing to God. I try to be careful not to think that way; not to speak that way. I will point to a scripture and say what it says. I can say what I believe God's intent was. I can say what my personal experiences with God have shown me in my own life. And I can say what is generally knowable: that God loves us and would like every person to know Him better.
What's the difference? Maybe there isn't one. But I try not to talk about what's going on inside God's giant flame-shooting head as though I am there. I try to make it clear that God's is the side I wish to be on, not that God is on my side.
There's a lot of renewed interest in C.S. Lewis right now due to the big Narnia movie coming out. But the best thing I ever learned from C.S. Lewis's work can be paraphrased this way: God doesn't need you. Once you are able to get your head around that surprisingly tough concept, then maybe, just maybe, God will show you the manner in which you can serve.
Or if you're a jerk like me you'll just say it as God doesn't need you to do His job for Him.
